We Stand There...(monologue)

We stand there, hopeless. In a time of great need. We wait for things to come to us, to make our own. We want to belong, to go to great lengths to be accepted. Rigid, as the rush of life streams past you, you turn round and it’s too late, a speck…a tiny speck in the distance. You call after it, nothing but the echo of your own voice. You are alone, alone with your thoughts; a dangerous road where you realise, life is not an obstacle, but a journey. You’ve been told this before, but you find logic in it. Life is a train journey, you have to take it, you can’t miss the train otherwise you fall behind. You wait forever for your stop and you’ll never know if it’s what you’re looking for, if you don’t take that train. But who is to say there is no life beyond the living, the before and after of the now is always present. Our journeys change everyday; everyday we take a new path, make mistakes and get everything horribly wrong. Is it regret or is it nostalgia. Do you wish you did it differently? Do we get another chance? These are questions we all have and these questions will probably never be answered. Every life is unfulfilled in some shape or form, so we have to choose a path. We have to have a goal…a dream. I have a dream, of course I do. If I didn’t, what am I doing here? I think about it every day, and everyday I’m worried I will never make it, that I am on the verge of failing, that I have chosen the wrong path…gotten off the wrong stop. There is no wrong stop. It’s either yours or it isn’t. You make it yours when the time comes…is it regret or is nostalgia. 25/02/12 - 03:09am

A Personal Study of Character and Capabilty

The dynamics and potential of ones personality is relevant to the craft of which they perceive. I am a shy and quiet person on my outer shell, it’s not unusual, but it can come across disengaged and unfriendly, but get to know me and understand my character my true colours and vibrant, quirky personality come into play. As an actor people make the mistake that if you are not a particular loud personality or a confident character you are deemed less capable of putting yourself out there, be it theatre, film or any given social situation. But I have come across more than once and agree with a case that the reserved person is a thinking-man, alert and aware, constantly adapting mentally. That’s where I fit in. An observer. I observe and I create, my reserved personality benefits me in a way that I can fully embody a character, rather than the more common fault of having ones overly large personality break into their performance. 
I like to think I pre-engage, calculative but thankfully, not sinister. There’s a saying that it is the quiet ones that are the most dangerous. That is a useful study into character and personality and taking a further analytical insight, it is the quiet ones that are the ones to watch. Someone who is a challenge to read is always more interesting than someone who encompasses the formulaic convention offering you their integrity on a stick. Confidence can come across as arrogance, it is difficult for someone who is shy to come across arrogant, but some who is calculative can also strike that border. I am myself, by no means in those categories. If I were, I wouldn't be writing this, I would be throwing it in your faces up close and personal. The depth of this study wouldn't surprise you and your questions wouldn't need answering.  
The thinking-man has more potential to develop and grow, soaking in fellow intelligence around him, the ‘other’ man spews out his personality around him and his consumption is limited. The quiet ones are the ones to watch. 11/02/12 – 12:55pm

A Greater subject Fifeth Faustus Wit.

Performing Faustus' opening monolegue for my NYT audition on saturday. http://swc2.hccs.cc.tx.us/rowhtml/faust/faustus.htm

Many projects in development - 2012 is the year!